Just yesterday morning my friend shared the following words of Chizuk (below). See what transpired later that evening.
We learn from Adam HaRishon that it is appropriate and right that we ask Hashem for what we want, as Adam asked for the grass, and he was answered. The grass seeds were just under the surface of the earth, and when he prayed for the rain, the seeds sprouted and up came the grass.
Hashem is described in our prayers as “Making salvation sprout” we can learn from this that the salvation, just like the grass, is just below the surface of our lives. It waits patiently, unseen, till the moment when our prayers and trust combine. Then Hashem sends the “rain” into our lives and it begins to sprout.
Last night we reached one of “those moments”!
The days are long…the nights are longer. We haven’t slept thru the night and have been averaging less than 5 hours of sleep. Finally, last night the baby BH slept thru the night. So you would think “great” we slept. Well that wasn’t the case. My other children woke up crying from being uncomfortable due to allergies. This went on for about 45 minutes at 12:30 am.
Well that was it. I had had it… We all have our limits and that was mine. At that moment I said, very simply (but not quietly) “די – ENOUGH”. Only I wasn’t speaking to my kids – who were legitimately uncomfortable from allergies – I was speaking to Hashem. The baby was finally sleeping. This was not supposed to be happening. I said “Hashem, PLEASE HELP US. We need energy to take care of Benny and the rest of our children. We cannot go on anymore without sleep. We need your help.” It was at moment where PRAYER and complete TRUST in Hashem merged that Hashem listened. It was the first night in months that Benny slept thru the night and the other children remained sleeping until morning.
Talk to Hashem directly, from the depths of your heart, in the language you can communicate best. Hashem listens. Hashem answers… and sometimes, we are required to speak directly, plainly, yet plaintively, to our Father (and the Father of our children) and say… Enough… You have pushed us to our limit and only you can step in. HE LISTENS.