I want to be able to light my Shabbos candles at home and pray for the well being of my husband, my children, my family, friends and the world at large. True I can pray over the electric lights, but it’s not the same as looking into the two tone colored flames and watching the candles flicker. It’s not the same sitting in a hospital room making Kiddush, Hamotzei and singing Zemiros without our other children. My husband not being able to bench our children and seal it with a kiss. I will miss the smell of the chicken soup cooking Erev Shabbos or the hot potato kugel coming out of the oven (although lately, my wonderful neighbor has been bringing us one every week). I will miss going to shul for some of the davening and afterwards greeting friends Good Shabbos. I will miss not being able to take Benny away from all the craziness he has to go thru during the week and just being able to relax in peace over Shabbos.
All I pray for before I go to sleep tonight is that IY”H (G-D Willing) when I wake up in the morning, Benny’s appetite returns, he eats everything in site and the doctors discharge us in time for Shabbos. Then I will be able to light my Shabbos candles.
Good Shabbos and we hope to see you in Shul IY”H.