How do we mourn the sadness Yerushalayim (Jeruslalem) home to the Bais Hamikdash (The House of G-D) feels on a yearly, daily, hourly, minute by minute, second by second basis?
All I have to do is look around from the minute I enter this hospital and see the Churban (destruction) of our time. Unfortunately, there is not one of us that aren’t effected by someone with this terrible illness. On a recent visit by Rav Matisyahu Soloman (he should live to 120) he said this horrific plague, is the Holocaust of our time. What are we do to stop this ? We need to mourn for Yerushalayim, feel her pain. If that is too distant to feel, feel the pain of a mother lying next to her sick child in bed hoping and praying that her baby live a long and healthy life. CRY. CRY and CRY some more. Hashem (G-D) needs to hear our cries, taste our tears, feel our pain. Our pain is G-D’s pain.
What is the next step? RECOGNITION. Recognize we need to make a change. Little or Big. We need to strive to be better people. Better parents, better children, better friends, better brothers and sisters.
Benny was agitated throughout the night last night. I lost count after 12, how many times he woke up screaming. Unfortunately, his father, Ari, is home sick in bed with fever, so I was not able to hand him off. I am grateful to my sister, Shira who slept in the hospital with me so I would not be alone, but Benny wouldn’t go to her. Anyways, by the 5th or 6th outburst running on no sleep for the past few days we’ve been in the hospital, I was close to saying ENOUGH – I can’t anymore and being really upset. Instead at that moment I cried out to Hashem (G-D) and begged him to help Benny fall back asleep and take away his pain. Benny continued to wake up screaming and crying and miraculously I continued to remain calm and he eventually went back to sleep. I wish there was something I could do at that very moment . I came to the realization that the only thing I can do, is be there for Benny, hug him, kiss him, and leave the rest up the Hashem and his messengers; the doctors and nurses. At that moment I felt a slight change in my Middos (character trait) in patience. I did not lose my patience, although, my pulse may have been slightly elevated, and I may have cried, I didn’t lose it!
That brings me to my final point. ACTION. Pick one thing, anything and put into action the change you want to make. You will feel empowered. You will feel a closer connection to our Creator. You will have a direct effect on the outcome of Benny’s Refuah and all the Cholim (sick ones) in the world.
Benny needs your help. His white blood counts remain extremely low. His platelets are low, although an hour ago he was given a transfusion, and his red blood cells are dropping. His mouth sores will only heal once his counts rise. Please help us build up Benny’s immune system thru one change at a time. We need him to start eating again, which he showed some interest B’H this morning. If we can stop ourselves even once today from saying something about another, and in that merit Benny’s mouth won’t hurt him – it will be a HUGE zechus.
Please don’t be offended by my words. That is not my intentions. If your are moved or even cry, I am okay with that. It shows you care. It shows you yearn for Benny’s Refuah. It shows you yearn for the Geulah Shlema (The FInal Redemtion). Benny’s illness will not be for nothing nor will any of those dear to your heart with this illness. Hashem will hear your cries and see your changes and be ready to say enough!!!
Please help us get out of the hospital. Help us get HOME! Help Hashem get HOME to the Bais Hamikdash in Yerushalayim so that very soon Binyomin Chaim Ben Faigie Sarah can do his Avodah (service) in the Bais Hamikdash.