It’s the morning (4:30 am), after a very long Yom Kippur. What made it feel longer was the fact that we did not get much sleep during the night. Unfortunately, Benny spiked a fever and was up most of the night. Just in case, we did not have what to Daven for, Hashem very quickly reminded us. This is the first time Benny has had a fever since his lines have been removed. Let us pray that it is only a virus and disappears as fast as it arrived.
At 7 am, the first thing out of Benny’s mouth was, “I want to go to shul!” I waited a few hours before I took him, but we made it. He was not interested in staying with the babysitters, so after a couple of hours of back and forth between Ari and myself, I took him home.
B”H I was able to lay down for a couple of hours before heading back for N’eilla. I contemplated before leaving whether to take Benny. I had read something from Reb. Yemima Mizrachi the night before saying, how important the Tefillah of N’eilla is and if possible it is good to bring the children because Hashem loves the prayers of children. I opted to leave Benny because of his fever and he was happy playing with brothers and babysitter. About an hour later, the final minutes before N’eilla was about to be concluded, I got a tap on my shoulder in shul. My son was waiting outside of shul with Benny in his arms. He told me Benny was screeching for me. I immediately brought him in shul where he remained quietly in my arms and listened to the Chazan recite the words, “Shema Yisroel, Baruch Shem K’Vod (3 times) , and Hashem Ho Ha’Elokim (7 times), Avinu Malkeinu and Kaddish.”
The timing could not have been better. Although, my neck and shoulders were aching and I was at my weakest moment, I couldn’t have been happier to see and hold Benny. At that moment, I regained strength and just stood there holding him, kissing him, crying and Davening all at once. Benny couldn’t stay away. He needed to Daven and ask Hashem on his own to be inscribed in the Book of Life.
May Hashem answer all our Tefillos and give us a life filled with Good Health, Good Mazal and Bracha that is revealed for good, for 120 years.