Some posts are easier to write than other’s. This is one of those other’s.
I have been forming several thoughts since last week and I am not quite sure how it will go.
Last Shabbos we celebrated in our shul the Bar Mitzvah of Meir Dov Aryeh Ben Avigayil Maima Rochel Z”L. It has been two very long months since the Petira of Avigayil O”H, however, there is not a day that goes by that I am not reminded of her. Especially, because Benny loves playing with the toys that she bought him while he was in the hospital.
Last Shabbos, I attended Davening on Friday night in the shul to hear the beautiful melodies sung by the Shira Choir. As I closed my eyes listening to the choir, I envisioned the Tefillos going up to Shamayim, bringing Simcha to those above. Although, Avigayil O”H, is in the High Heavens, her presence was surely felt down below, at her son’s Bar Mitzvah. The energy in the room reminded me of the Yomim Noraim (High Holidays) and the closeness one feels with Hakodesh Baruchu at that time. Just as Hashem comes down to be close to us during Rosh Hashana-Yom Kippur, so does a loved one, join us, during times of Simchos.
Throughout, Rosh Hashana and Yom Kippur Davening, I find myself envisioning, standing in the court yard of the Bais Hamikdosh, and what it would be like when Moshiach comes IY”H.
As I stood there in shul envisioning Avigayil Z”L looking down proud of her son, the vision came to an abrupt end when I heard her son, Meir, on the other side of the Mechitza recite Kadesh. The tears of joy quickly turned to ones of sorrow. Why is it that a Bar Mitzvah boy is standing before his fellow Mispalalim saying Kadesh for his mother?
I don’t begin to question, nor do I attempt to understand. All I know is, there is a greater picture, way beyond my vision. All I can do is pray that this child and his siblings BE”H will be Zoche to be reunited in future Simchos with their mother and that we will all share in the greatest Simcha of all with the coming of Moshiach IY”H.
This beautiful Posuk was composed into a beautiful melody by Meir’s uncle Mr. Shlomo Yehuda Rechnitz. (unfortunately the direction of Hebrew words came out reversed when I took the picture). The english reads: “for this child I Davened and Hashem gave to me my request that I beseeched from him. And I shall continue to Daven forever. For I am your Mother, who stands by you for eternity. ”
Video of melody
As I light my candles this Shabbos, (IY”H, I am aiming to do this 10 minutes before the actual candle lighting time), I will have in mind all those in need of a Refuah and Yeshua. I will have in mind those who unfortunately are no longer able to light O”H, and Daven for their children as well. Avigayil O”H, thank you for being a role model to all of us. May your light continue to shine in this world and above for all eternity. Each and every one of us have to ability to make an impact in this world. Make your imprint today! Good Shabbos