As I sit here on the night of Erev Rosh Hashana (and my birthday ), and reflect back at this past year, B”H I have so much to be thankful for. Ari and I have been blessed with another year on this world filled with good health for ourselves and our children. A year of Simcha (happiness). We all have our definitions of happiness. For me it is seeing a smile on faces of the people I love and even those I don’t even know. I am so grateful to Hashem for allowing our family to heal and move forward and resume “normal” activity. I am so grateful to all our family members, doctors, friends and caring individuals who have helped us immensely over the past couple of years. It is thru your love and support in a thousand different ways, that gave us the ability to survive on a minute to minute basis.
One of my biggest struggles today (post treatment) is maintaining that level of closeness with Hashem, the level of dependancy. When life resumes to normal, so do the distractions and independence. While I don’t want to ever feel the pain, I don’t want to forget Who is running the show and Who took the pain away.
Unfortunately, our dear young friends are still in the midst of this battle, Elimelech ben Basya and Chaya Mushka bas Hadassa Shayna and there is not a day that goes by that I wish for them a life of “normalcy” once again. These children are my extraordinary hero’s who continue to teach me my mission in life.
A few weeks ago Benny started kindergarten. He is B”H growing, learning and occasionally getting “time outs” (can you imagine!!!). Benny talks about his Bar Mitzvah daily and about his future wife too IY”H. He too teaches me on a daily basis a lesson in Emunah and Bitachon.
I pray for all of you a year and life time full of Good Health, Mazal Bracha, Success, Happiness and Closeness with Hashem Yisborach.
Shana Tova Umetuka,